when a positive pregnancy test isn't a good thing...

That's what happened to me yesterday. I went for my post pardum check up and found out that my body still thinks I'm pregnant. Which means the miscarriage isn't complete. Which would explain a lot of how I've been feeling {emotionally} the past couple of weeks. Feeling like hormones and emotions are completely out of whack and not knowing what's going on with my body. This would explain it.
I am going in a few days for an ultrasound, where they will be able to tell how much tissue has been left behind and where its at. As long as there are no signs of infection, I will wait it out 2-3 weeks and go in once a week for blood tests, to see if my levels are dropping on their own - which would be a good sign.
If they don't drop, I have to have a D&C.
Please be in prayer for me. I confess feeling a huge knot in my stomach when she said the test came back positive. You're not usually upset to hear those words. Please pray that even though it will be long and drawn out, that this will all pass naturally and I won't have to to the D&C. I'm not afraid of it, I know God is bigger than that, but I had hoped to avoid it as much as possible.

And on the completely selfish side of things, this is quite possibly going to have to push our trip to CA off for several more weeks, possibly longer :(
2011 for me might just be marked with this motto "you never know what tomorrow will bring, so trust Jesus today, with the rest of your life."

I think I need to go back and meditate on the book of James... 

8 {comments}:

Shane Eckert said...

Nice post Stef.

Stef said...

Thanks Shane. I'm asusming you mean the one below this though ;-)

Brooke said...

Sorry, Stef :(. I'll be praying.

Melissa Joy said...

Oh I've been there. I'm so sorry Stef. You know I'm praying. And if you need to talk specifics, you know how to get me.
2009 and 2010 have been years like that for me... and the motto is so much harder to LIVE than to simply say. Sanctification is so hard.
Praying for you, body and soul.

The Abe Green Family said...

Sorry, Stef! This is very rough. Praying for you.

Jessica said...

Oh geez, I'm so sorry to hear all of this!! This has been such an overwhelming time and im sad that it's not over yet. :( it reminds me of Isaiah 40:28-31)

28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable.
29 He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength.
30 Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted;
31 but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

Love you, dear friend!!

shaneeckert said...

Doh!!! I did mean that one. Sorry.

Stef said...

Thank you! Your prayers mean the world to me.

No worries, Shane :)


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